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I'm an artist which also means I'm a
creator since I create things
a storyteller since I have stories to tell
a visionary I write about where I've
been these poems act and self-help I'm a
healer not always for myself but one
time a kid told me he almost killed
himself but he heard one of my poems and
decided to keep living and from that day
forward I was like today is a good day
to keep someone alive people ask me how
I did it or how they should do it and
I'm not sure if they're asking me about
the kid or themselves what I've come to
learn is can't nobody tell when I'm not
doing well with me I get to travel
across the country and do poems for a
living like that's my job and out of 50
states are performed in 47 of them I
read I read an article that said only
20% of people in the US are doing what
they love or whatever sad statistic it
was and I was like my god ain't damn
nothing in me I'm doing exactly what
I've always wanted to do so I must be
blessed must be exemplifying all this
miracle I am stressed and winning I look
at and update my curriculum vitae daily
and I'd be like damn I'm surprised I
even knew how to say that word and ain't
nobody wishes nothing bad on me but me
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like everything I ever wanted
I manifesting at the end of each
meditation I act universe to make me
undeniably enough and people be mad
happy when I show up one time I
performed for two hundred thousand
people and I didn't throw up it was so
cool and exhausting did you know I can
touch what feels like a million people's
energy and help them feel seen but go
back to my hotel room feeling so
fulfilled yet lonely yeah it's amazing
another time I thought I was gonna marry
this guy had been with for like six
years out of my life but he said he
hated my lifestyle even though this is
my life's work because my work means I'm
never home but every time I came back he
was gone
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that's an emotionally unavailable
mentally abusive I have extreme PTSD
from that unhealthy relationship but
someone asked me to do that one poem
about that one time where he was mine
may you find a lover that helps you love
yourself may you find a lover that
doesn't require you to give more to them
then you have to give to yourself did I
mention I paid off my student loans with
poetry
can't nobody tell me I'm not the
but me I get so sad sometimes I think
I'm losing my mind and I must be since I
enrolled in graduate school this past
May I guess I returned to my oppressor
I am whoever the I think I am but I
wish being a good person paid more I
heard I heard it's the wounds people
can't see that that hurt the most but
I've seen sunsets that look
like somewhere tomorrow my heart is on
fire so I'm chasing the day at night I
don't sleep I grind I've been in my
prime life nine times I got so much love
I give and keep giving I have so much
advise it'll really opinions or maybe
they're just hard facts I have hardly
learned yet did you know the people ask
me how I'm doing by also commenting on
my weight and Here I am some foolish
somebody that didn't hate the way they
look today but your right girl must be
the depression but I'm the kind of giant
that's been through what I've been
through and you can still depend on I
gave all that I had and you ain't never
known a black woman who ain't did that
my friends call on me when they're down
and out or just in need or good is a god
that can't speak life into somebody
check on your strong friends check on
your strong friends check on your strong
friends don't believe us I promise we're
pretending have you ever have you ever
tried to tell someone you're not okay
and they're like you got this and you're
like but I don't and you're like they're
like you're good and you're like but I'm
not and they're like keep going and
you're like okay
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Thanks, you're right I could do this with
my eyes closed I get so overwhelmed that
I'm drowning and screaming but everybody
thought I was smiling and swimming I
died in that dream and then I woke up on
an airplane flying to a different
country to do poetry and I thought my
god
and damn nothing in me I'm doing exactly
what I've always wanted to do I'm so
blessed I'm so blessed I'm so blessed
that my life is crazy my heart is racing
I'm probably dehydrated traveling does
awful things to the body but the one
the thing I can tell you about being
successful is that you have to love what
you're doing can't nobody steal my joy
okay nobody steals my joy not even myself
I heard I heard or someone said if your
the path is more difficult it's because your
calling is higher so I say I am a heroin
legend nobody built like me I designed
myself but every time I climb my
community get cosign Definity define
cheers to the most huh I just pray I
leave something good behind my name is
ebony Stewart thank you so much.
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